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Vanishing DenialCould it ever be enough
If I apologized
Until my ability to
Vanished from my grasp
As it is smeared with my blood
And your tears
Tainting the meaning
Of all that we ever spoke
Would you forgive me
Or will you rather I choke
This thing still lives
Inside my chest
Locked within my rips
Festering the sore
Around this cold torment
I can wish
That it never happened
That I had listened to myself
And not what they said
I doubt anything would have been right
If it ever involved you
Why do I continue
To ask these questions
And am unable
To stop thinking about you
When I don't care
I don't care
Not at all
So why does it feel
Like I wish
I had done better
That I had done what you wanted
When that would have ruined
Why do thoughts of you
Continue to torment me?
Yes, now I remember.............
It was never you
It was me
It was what I thought you were
Since I never really understood
Never really saw
What you were
Through that veil you hide behind
Your way that is the enemy
Chivalrous Childrentake this heart
take this life
take this pain
take this strife
take my love
take my toy
take my pride
take my joy
place it in an iron box
place it in a furnace
bury it deep within the earth
from which it will never surface
lock it in a place
guarded by the pure
forbid it from being seen
since there is no cure
do you think you're right?
do you think you're a hero?
do you think you're saving someone?
do you think it's fun?
the answer is not what you seek
the answer is not what you want
the answer is not what you need
the answer is not what you control
So will you do it
Will you take it
Will you be a hero
Will you save them
From the demon
But how do you define a demon
How do you define what's right
How do you define what's pure
How can a definition be true
The words on the page
Can never really help you
You must help yourself
Cause this devotion
Is just ink and paper
Why are you just sitting there?
Why are you just staring?
Why are you asking me questions?
Why don't you like my answers?
A Little Bird Told MeI sat there
On the cliff
Watching the world
Far away from them
Until a bird came
And whispered my name
And told me to follow it
I rose to my feet
and started walking
Though on my lame legs
I could barely stand
Because I barely used them
But I drew closer
To the edge
Without ever looking down
Because I was watching the bird
And not that filthy town
I reached out
To touch that bird
The only life I'd seen
Yet so far
So far out of reach
I started to fall
But then the wind
The wind pushed me back
And put me back on the ground
and thanks to it
I never fell
All the way down...
What Do We Know?In the moment I sit next to you
I act like I don't care,
But do you know how much I really
Enjoy being with you there?
When I say it doesn't matter
Thou the scars show such disgrace,
Do you know it really hurts more
Lying right to your face?
And in my moment of gratitude
I show nothing but modesty,
But do you know how embarrassing
It would be if I acted honestly?
So as the tears drop down your heart
And you think of me as a cold form,
Do you know your place in mine
Shall eternally be warm?
And In the moment you sit next to me
Acting like you don't care,
Do I know it you really
Ever enjoy me being there?
And when you say it doesn't matter
Thou you heart feels such disgrace
How do I know which phrase is you
Lying straight to my face?
And in your moment of gratitude
You show nothing but modesty,
But do I know how embarrassing
It would be if you acted honestly?
And though tears drip down my heart
It's place for you is warm
Though I falter in your wake
You always mend the pieces I've tor
StrongerI saw her today
I saw her
... and thought of you
Thought of what you said
And how I didn't realize
Didn't realize what it meant
What you meant
How you meant something
So different than I though
Than I dared to think
But now I am
And I can't stop thinking
About what a fool I was
Such a fool
But I'm still learning
And won't let you get me anymore
So when I see her
I will know
I am stronger
Than you thought
Disposable UnionBeneathe the creator, the emobodiment of love,
A union of souls takes place for a though above.
While all who know you watch you here,
To this contradictory adherance you fear.
Tell her of the joys she shall gain,
Speak not of when this love shall wane.
Tell her of the power of this reign,
But not that dear moment's pain.
A golden circle binds though rendered holiness,
As though to sooth a separate emptiness.
And to be together until a fated journey,
...you said you loved me always...
Will you not be returning?
Appreciated ApprehensionDress her up
Paint away all the bruises
Polish away the lies
Curl her hair like the angel's
Cover her with the sparkle of lies
Watch her follow your expectation
Speaking only from the script
Forget that she has no voice
Believe in this plastic publication
As you see her on her trip
The priest stood above us all
A connection to the heavens
Asked you if it was your wish
And to assure your sanity;
Her reply was not surprising
The embellishments were beyond belief
I was stunned surpassed my consciousness
And when the others spoke to me
I could feel no lingering trickery
And believed everything was right
I sat there, watching you
Believing in everything you do
All these words that you said
Enjoying this beloved fantasy
As a frigid whisper touches me...
..and she doesn't appreciate any of it...
FearingWhat I fear is not being ugly,
But the pretty ones I see.
What I fear is not being caged,
But the ones around walking free.
What I fear is not my destruction,
But what you will then think of me.
Catch these pieces of pain
that fall bitterly down,
Because the corrupted collection
is used to polish your crown.
What I fear is not sadness,
But the tears that escape my eyes.
What I fear is not imperfection
But the voice that it denies.
What I fear is not your screaming,
But of my enchantm
Chaotic CaptivityForgotten promises fill my mind
But none of the important kind
Just something memorable to me
Whose fulfillment would set me free.
Oh, the pieces of emptiness fit so well
With the bars and walls of this tainted hell
Dreaming of your promise to me
And how you ignore my captivity.
I still hope that you would remember
Though our fire has been reduced to an ember
I still dream of it with such intense glee
Blinding contrast to the dismal misery.
~Shame fills when I think of asking
If I could speak the words without collapsing
And finally have what I've been lacking.~
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